Thursday, 18 April 2013

Being Human

On the way to the hide-out place.... 

Assalamualaikum
dan salam sejahtera...

*Sorry. But this is a personal post. Not an advice or article. Just simple words that won't harm anyone. 

Its near 3 o'clock in the morning. Yet, still writing my blog. I finished my case report for Stomatology zachut in the evening already, but I don't know what makes me still awake. Mixed feeling. Scared. Basically not about studies. About life maybe. Grrr.. Thinking too much! 

I'd been thinking too much lately, since I have a lot of free times this week. Its Stomatology cycle! Honeymoon cycle. Yeah. I need a break for a while after long lasting fighting in this semester. After this will be Dermatology. Exam cycle. But this week is heaven. Yet, what had I done? Its thursday already. 

Its near four years living in Russia. Another 2 years to go. Then, my life will be completely different from now. This is the moment that I'll missed the most. The student life. The moment I'm in rite now. But sometimes I'm scared. Scared of the TIME. Time that seems like flying too fast. 

Kadang-kadang rasa takut dengan masa yang terlampau pantas berlalu.
Sehingga membuat dadaku terasa sesak.

Kadang-kadang rasa takut untuk hadapi realiti di masa hadapan.
Sehingga membuat aku ingin beku pada masa ini.

Kadang-kadang aku takut untuk melangkah ke satu lagi tapak ke depan.
Kerana terasa kerdil dengan pelbagai masa silam.

Kadang-kadang terasa takut apabila aku manapak terlampau jauh dan cepat.
Kerana takut aku akan tersungkur jauh ke dalam semula. 

Kadang-kala aku terasa jauh dengan yang dekat.
Sehingga membuat aku menjadi sedih di malam hari. 

Aku juga manusia seperti kamu. Bukan malaikat atau syaitan. 
Bantulah aku tatkala memerlukan. Kerana aku butuh bantuan kamu. 

My hide-out place. 
Grab a pen and diary. Just vomit everything here. 

3 comments:

  1. Just let me know everything tau.I'm here for you :D

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  2. fighting fighting for dermato! ;)

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  3. Seriously jelous tengok kawan2 len study kt oversea, dulu ade apply tp dpt dlm ngara jer..huhu

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Kalau ada salah silap, Jangan segan silu untuk tegur.
Kalau ada terkasar bahasa, Ampun maaf di pinta.
Saya juga manusia biasa seperti anda.
^_^